Awaken......悟

邪来烦恼至
正来烦恼除
邪正俱不用
清净至无余
Trouble come with foul thinking
Trouble gone with honest mind
Without foul and without honest
Pure like everything is nothing

I think i am just a normal people
I always try to be satisfied with what i have now
If there is less , i will more appreciate what i left
If there is more , i will be grateful
If you feel content with what you have now
Then you can find happiness beside you
Want or more is not bad thinking
But if you are too stubborn to accept the truth
And keep trapping yourself in the past
You will live in the past , you won't proceed in the present
Sometimes why don't you release your tighten fist
And try to relax , you might realize how easy the feeling
To let go of the past and continue forward

Separated Road.....

yesterday steambot with frenz
it seem to be our final gathering before exam
after that we will go on with our separate ways
really feel sad to say goodbye with such good frenz
we have so much good time before
such laughter , happiness , comfort
will soon be gone.....disappear just like mist
what is left will be the memory of us....
whole group go on with different ways
is just like a piece of glass drop onto the floor
shatter into pieces which like us
no longer together and break into lone way
i will smile happily when we separate
and wish you all good luck in the journey ahead
even though i don't like to see separation
I HATE SEPARATION !!!!

A new happy beginning ^.^

on 8 of April
6am in the morning
 i wake up and preparing myself for volunteering work at 7am
the road is dark in the morning
but adorn by the glimmering lamppost
the scene is quiet yet sorrow
never see utar in such nice scene
if in day time you can only see sunlight(very hot one ) XP
after arrived at school
i register myself and get on the bus
on the way to tronoh mines
 i just put my mind wandering
after a while we arrive at tronoh mines
and i get into group according to instructions
and whole group of 6 people i don't even know 1 of them
then come our breakfast NASI LEMAK!!!(i don't like spicy !!!)
even though i finished the food but i need to drink lots of water
thats why i hate spicy XP
after that my group leader edward brief us on what we should do
my group work is to clear the drain seem easy task enough
after i saw the drain , the drain don't seem to meet my expectation
the drain is not clogged....but earthen(think again T_T)
so our job is to dig the drain but not clear the drain
NVM !!! just do it !! after half an hour i think
the first little drain is clear(there come the big one)
and i start to know my teammate ,
elisa , ji xuan , pooi yee ,caturont and aggie
so our group start to dig the big one
 (i finally know what mines mean , digging >.<)
this one take quite a lot of time to clear
and i found some beer in the drain(anyone want some ?? XP )
the aunty live nearby saw our effort
and give us a pack of rambutan(i forget where does it go after that )
thank you so muchy ^^ and quite tasty also
dig dig dig , finally we dig a drain from a piece of soil
it really look like a piece of soil XP
after that we go back to our routine
and continue clear down the road(dig drain again T_T)
something funny also happen at this time(pandan planting....)
really shock about what we have to do (everyday i shock.....)
photographer is taking picture about our work
suddenly ji xuan say me blocking her =.=|||(i really didn't mean it)
but she won't believe me
and say i am cunning(wahaha thats me XP , kidding kidding)
after that we go back to the hall for teatime ?(after breakfast??)
after teatime we go to paint the little market besides the hall
this is the time i get my hand like snow white XP(don't envy please...)
and most of us also stained by the paint
elisa didn't not get any i remember??? pro dao >.<
i remember elisa accidently painted my hand
and she keep sorry about that(nvm lah ^^)
but very funny after we paint for a while(i think just 15 minutes??)
the committee come to call us for lunch and we need to stop our work
and we use dina sui(lol don't know how to say in english)
to clean our stained hand
finally our lunch- gai fan (chicken rice XP)  arrived and we enjoyed it
the soup taste like sea water or plain water
elisa get sea water XP and me too T_T.....really beh tahan
after that we help to clean the hall windows(i think 1 year didn't clean)
each of our teammate get 1 column of window to clean
but edward didn't get XP
then we go back to our table and rest and cui sui(blow water)
and we take picture together and get to know more among us
edward also free from the committee work and cui sui with us
he is really a nice leader ^^
after that is the closing ceremony (take picture saja lah)
we also take quite a lot of picture after that
and we get on bus to go back utar
bye bye pooi yee , ji xuan , elisa , caturont and aggie
don't forget me ahh T_T

my teammate photo ^.^(paiseh ji xuan and caturont at corner there)

really happy to work with you all T_T 

don't know when got chance to work together again

DON'T FORGET ME AHH !!!

For you and only you......Separation......

Day by day has passed without any hesitation to stop
Time flow like river and cannot be reversed
You like a little sister to me
Sunny , Cheerful , Laughter
And i feel really happy when i saw you smile or laugh
But i am opposite to you
Pessimistic is the real me
Even though every time i act like nothing is wrong
Thats why i call myself Joker
A joker bring happiness to anyone around him
But he is the one without happiness
In fact he will cry behind the crowd and no one will notice him
And you , you will leave this place soon
And there will be empty memory without you inside
I just want to see you have a happy memory here
And never feel sad about this place
As long as you are happy i am happy ^^
Even though i feel sad about the separation
But i will smile and hide my tears while wishing you.....
Good luck in your further studies
I wish to eat dinner with you and have more time with you
but you always not free or you don't want to go with me is it??
I don't know the reason
But i feel more sad when everyday pass
Because that means i will separate with you soon
Maybe i am too selfish
As i want to take your time but you have no time for me
Sorry if i disturbed you , i am really ok ^.^ as long as you are happy

爱.......很简单....妹妹

忘了是怎么开始

也许就是對你一种感觉

哈哈怎么我还是喜欢拿歌词来开头啊

开玩笑啦本人已和爱情无缘XD

说起爱啊

我就想起我妹妹咯

想起时常被她叫~"姐"~

哈哈很奇怪吧

不过我还蛮喜欢她这样叫我的

不过本人应该是和妹妹无缘吧

"如妹".....好奇怪的称呼XD

自从中学毕业就满少联络的

不过我和她可是从小学认识到现在的啊(还是幼稚园呢??幼稚园不算啦)

哈哈说不好听点我可是没有什么照顾到她咧....惭愧惭愧(不太合格的姐姐)

最近又让我觉得我遇到一个好像妹妹的女生(感觉上,不是外貌啦)

每天都遇到她啊又好像很干涉她的东西

所以她可能会觉得我好像很粘(或是以为我有企图??)

哈哈其实已开始我是有点混乱啦(以为自己喜欢她了)

不过我搞清楚只是自己想多罢了(感觉上很像妹妹)

所以有时觉得自己好像有点太过热情了(简直是超标.....什么有点)

不过不太担心她不会看华语的

不过知道她不会继续在utar读书之后满伤心的

最讨厌离别了.....

所以我说我跟妹妹是没什么缘分的

都会远离我而去....伤心T_T

唉不想酱多了.....睡觉睡觉(在她临走前留下一点回忆吧)emo....emo

爱情Ｘ承诺......算了

爱情
一开始开开心心
到最后搞到互相伤害
结果好像世界末日一样
什么事情都提不起劲
爱情看似美好
但失去时却会伤你最深
就像玫瑰一样
你欣赏它的美
但不小心的
你就会被它扎伤
对我来说
爱情拥有与否
都没什么大不了
反正我这个人
是负不了任何责任的
答应的承诺也不会做到
承诺是很容易的
但要做到是很沉重的
承诺是可以伤人的
我现在不会轻易承诺任何东西
因为它让我上了惨痛的一课
承诺之前想清楚.....
你做不到就不要给人一丝的希望！！
爱情.....算了吧
我只会伤人吧了

爱.....喜欢.....还是关心?

我不懂....
你在想什么......
我甚至不懂自己在想什么.....
我不懂......
我拚命跟自己说.....
不要胡思乱想.....
感觉不断的出现....
让我无法理智的思考.....
你问我....
是爱?喜欢?还是关心?
我自己也不清楚.....
我只是觉得感觉到了.....
把我的感觉说给你听.....
我问你的感觉是如何......
你说你需要时间想......
我就知道.....
你对我一点感觉都没有.....
那就直接拒绝我啊.....
那就当我爱错.....
我不要你的可怜.....
我也不相信什么培养感情的......
就当一切都没发生过.....