好人.....好累..........

不懂做什么......心情都好像不太好
尤其是某一天我简直就是愤怒.....
但我还是好象以前一样将自己的怒气往里吞.....
还是一脸没关系的样子.....
不让其他人看到我的愤怒.....
我真的累了.....好想休息一下......
我很累.....可以不做好人吗?
我不是说我不想帮人.....
只是当我觉得累的时候
我可以拒绝他人的请求吗?
如果我是得空可以帮忙
但我感觉很累时不帮人家又好像很衰
结果到最后我还是不管自己尽量配合><
我可以帮你......但可以等我休息一下后才找我吗?
我希望我可以说出自己的想法....但有人可以了解我吗? :'(

做自己！！！

最近新的sem开始咯
感觉上金宝多人了(朋友走人了T_T)
生活不会太忙啦
还不是一样颓废XP(难得我酱老实)
blek~~~~~~(开玩笑的*其实就是事实*)
不过我会做好自己
不会让自己失败
hohoho
其实颓废也是很令我敬佩的咯(酱都可以=.=|||)
接下去要介绍两位颓废哥哥给大家认识一下(谁是你哥哥了>.<)

tata他就是law霸啦

是在怒火街头这套剧里看到的
颓废但正义 吊儿郎当但需要时会帮忙大家
这就是我敬佩的颓废(这是什么敬佩.....)
哈哈有兴趣的活就去看看怒火街头吧超好看的(颓废好看XP)

接下去我就要介绍另一位颓废的哥哥了

他就是han in fast and furious

颓废但散发一种有型的气质(难以想象....)

真的啦真的超有型的说
颓废的来又有点潇洒一脸不在乎的样子(酷到暴!!!)
迷人到XP(有点羡慕的说T_T)
哈哈其实我讲做自己
就是因为我也有一点颓废的气质(值得高兴吗？XO)

但是当然没有两位哥哥酱厉害咯

所以我要以两位哥哥为榜样(有什么好学的啊??>.<)

就是要进修我的颓废XP(颓废...进修??)
我的意思是性格变得更像他们(自甘堕落!)

但要加油的增值自己(他们都是很有能力的人,颓废只是他们的性格)

感觉上别人会觉得我混乱到beh tahan XP

哈哈这就是我新的开始.......颓废!!!

Life is really joking to me

Today is the time when result is out

I didnt worry much last night 

As i know my result can only be worst

About 1 pm result is out !!!

Everyone is excited as the result is nice 

3.0 3.5 4.0 all really good result  

All happy sharing their result ^^

So i also go check my result 

Tata 1 nice F there 

My mind instantly drop from heaven to the hell

I stop my game , stunned for few seconds

All the consequences is coming out from my brain

After that i check other frenz in facebook

All still happy sharing their result
What i can do is congratz congratz 

Smiling when wishing other people

But my brain is just empty 

After that my mum phone rings

My mum call me as the people calling for me

Is the utar staff which tell me i am terminated from study 

I can appeal for termination within one week

HAHAHA the staff is really efficiency

Plan to tell my parents how nice is my result tonight

Then prepare for some scolding(You deserve it ^.^)

Last sem failed 2 subject

You are very regretted  about it that time

After 2 3 weeks back to normal playing playing playing

Where is your big words of score better in this sem

Please don't bluff lah you 

Everytime disappoint your mum and dad

You really are a useless junk fool

You have chances to do it right

Again and again you waste it 

Waste other people concern 

Waste money Waste time Waste yourself

JUNK!!!!!!

Holiday !!! + Self Awareness wait me !!!

After a long exam(i hate physics!!!!)

Finally holiday is coming(come on man holiday already pass a week) 

I have a gathering with good frenz from 38 gang

They always like to say what last gathering(still can gather geh ok)

But some of them is further study in kl utar

So might meet them less (got some people crying also haha XP )

Me of course no cry loh i am Mr.cool what XP (not joker meh)

Really happy to have these good frenz 

Serious in study yet playful ^.^ (thats my type) 

They also very helpful and look each others back

But separation of the gang sure is a sad news 

Destiny ahead is not the same so we have to path ways

Separation is unavoidable 

But gathering is available so no worry ^.^ we will meet again

My little bloggie was abandoned by me(holiday lazy mah) 

+i got god damn much of activities (movies,sing k,yam cha.....)

My most favorite is sing k really song loh ^.^

But still need much practice (lam foong lai geh mah XP)

Serious serious !!! after this sem i start to get myself back

Before that i was lost in many meaningless thing

Now i finally grab my tide in my life

Time is much but does not mean waste it

I want to improve myself

Chase my dream my way my life

I make my own choice yet i will listen to others advice

I don't want to live some boring life 

Now i am self aware 

Aware of how stupid i am in the past

Time to wake up Sethnes ^.^ 

Raise from where you fall !!! COME ON !!!

Awaken......悟

邪来烦恼至
正来烦恼除
邪正俱不用
清净至无余
Trouble come with foul thinking
Trouble gone with honest mind
Without foul and without honest
Pure like everything is nothing

I think i am just a normal people
I always try to be satisfied with what i have now
If there is less , i will more appreciate what i left
If there is more , i will be grateful
If you feel content with what you have now
Then you can find happiness beside you
Want or more is not bad thinking
But if you are too stubborn to accept the truth
And keep trapping yourself in the past
You will live in the past , you won't proceed in the present
Sometimes why don't you release your tighten fist
And try to relax , you might realize how easy the feeling
To let go of the past and continue forward

Separated Road.....

yesterday steambot with frenz
it seem to be our final gathering before exam
after that we will go on with our separate ways
really feel sad to say goodbye with such good frenz
we have so much good time before
such laughter , happiness , comfort
will soon be gone.....disappear just like mist
what is left will be the memory of us....
whole group go on with different ways
is just like a piece of glass drop onto the floor
shatter into pieces which like us
no longer together and break into lone way
i will smile happily when we separate
and wish you all good luck in the journey ahead
even though i don't like to see separation
I HATE SEPARATION !!!!

A new happy beginning ^.^

on 8 of April
6am in the morning
 i wake up and preparing myself for volunteering work at 7am
the road is dark in the morning
but adorn by the glimmering lamppost
the scene is quiet yet sorrow
never see utar in such nice scene
if in day time you can only see sunlight(very hot one ) XP
after arrived at school
i register myself and get on the bus
on the way to tronoh mines
 i just put my mind wandering
after a while we arrive at tronoh mines
and i get into group according to instructions
and whole group of 6 people i don't even know 1 of them
then come our breakfast NASI LEMAK!!!(i don't like spicy !!!)
even though i finished the food but i need to drink lots of water
thats why i hate spicy XP
after that my group leader edward brief us on what we should do
my group work is to clear the drain seem easy task enough
after i saw the drain , the drain don't seem to meet my expectation
the drain is not clogged....but earthen(think again T_T)
so our job is to dig the drain but not clear the drain
NVM !!! just do it !! after half an hour i think
the first little drain is clear(there come the big one)
and i start to know my teammate ,
elisa , ji xuan , pooi yee ,caturont and aggie
so our group start to dig the big one
 (i finally know what mines mean , digging >.<)
this one take quite a lot of time to clear
and i found some beer in the drain(anyone want some ?? XP )
the aunty live nearby saw our effort
and give us a pack of rambutan(i forget where does it go after that )
thank you so muchy ^^ and quite tasty also
dig dig dig , finally we dig a drain from a piece of soil
it really look like a piece of soil XP
after that we go back to our routine
and continue clear down the road(dig drain again T_T)
something funny also happen at this time(pandan planting....)
really shock about what we have to do (everyday i shock.....)
photographer is taking picture about our work
suddenly ji xuan say me blocking her =.=|||(i really didn't mean it)
but she won't believe me
and say i am cunning(wahaha thats me XP , kidding kidding)
after that we go back to the hall for teatime ?(after breakfast??)
after teatime we go to paint the little market besides the hall
this is the time i get my hand like snow white XP(don't envy please...)
and most of us also stained by the paint
elisa didn't not get any i remember??? pro dao >.<
i remember elisa accidently painted my hand
and she keep sorry about that(nvm lah ^^)
but very funny after we paint for a while(i think just 15 minutes??)
the committee come to call us for lunch and we need to stop our work
and we use dina sui(lol don't know how to say in english)
to clean our stained hand
finally our lunch- gai fan (chicken rice XP)  arrived and we enjoyed it
the soup taste like sea water or plain water
elisa get sea water XP and me too T_T.....really beh tahan
after that we help to clean the hall windows(i think 1 year didn't clean)
each of our teammate get 1 column of window to clean
but edward didn't get XP
then we go back to our table and rest and cui sui(blow water)
and we take picture together and get to know more among us
edward also free from the committee work and cui sui with us
he is really a nice leader ^^
after that is the closing ceremony (take picture saja lah)
we also take quite a lot of picture after that
and we get on bus to go back utar
bye bye pooi yee , ji xuan , elisa , caturont and aggie
don't forget me ahh T_T

my teammate photo ^.^(paiseh ji xuan and caturont at corner there)

really happy to work with you all T_T 

don't know when got chance to work together again

DON'T FORGET ME AHH !!!